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29 August 2008 @ 06:43 am
Still no sign of him.

My only consolation is that if he was dead somewhere in the apartment, I would have found his body. We have looked EVERYWHERE. We've moved the fridge, the washer and dryer, we've torn furniture apart, looked in the dryer tubes, nothing. Spent a good four or five hours searching for any sign of him outside - yeah, he's a ferret, but he really doesn't like the outdoors that much. If he IS outside somewhere, I have no idea how he got out, because no windows or doors were open and the last time I saw him was 10am Tuesday, well after David had already left for work, so there's no way he could have escaped while Dave was leaving.

If he DID go outside, then he must have been found by someone. There is so much traffic on the trail, and he is so friendly, he would walk right up to someone, anyone, even a stranger. It's the only thing that would prevent him finding his way home.

I've put an ad in the paper, it'll run all weekend starting tomorrow. Bless Record Eagle for not charging for lost and found ads (not that I'd balk at paying, but free is always nicer) and I'll be putting up signs today.

In some ways, this is worse than Newbie dying. Newbie was old and sick and we knew the inevitable was coming for a long time. Pucky was in the bedroom Tuesday morning wrestling VERY LOUDLY with a plastic bag, and I yelled at him to be quiet not knowing that it'd be the last time I'd see him :( I feel so guilty, you can't even imagine. I was in shock all last night. I don't think I've ever cried so much.

I drank a lot of vodka last night in the hopes that I'd fall asleep quickly - which shows how upset I was, because I hate to drink - and it would have probably worked if I had gone to bed a little sooner. As it was I had to get up to cry a little in private, and then when I crawled back into bed I counted until I calmed down enough to try and sleep. I got to 600.

Of course, tonight is one of Dave's work party things for his boss so I have to clean myself up before then. I've relapsed into my "stress relief" (no, it's not cutting, but it's in the neigborhood) so I'm not looking or feeling 100% right now, but showering and doing my hair and cleaning up the apartment will at least take my mind off of things.
Feeling: numbnumb
Laura/Cricket: FERRETS <3cricket_fur on August 29th, 2008 11:48 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry to hear you still cannot find Pucky... I really hope he turns up!
I've only had my three ferrets a month now, and i would be devastated if any of them turned up missing. I can't imagine how you feel :/

*offers her ferrets for petting*
sushikitten59sushikitten59 on August 29th, 2008 12:07 pm (UTC)
Thanks :)

Pucky is my baby boy - last month I had five ferrets, and now this month it seems that I'll be down to three...and even though I love my three girls dearly, I'd give anything to see Pucky's happy little face again.

I've been five or so years without a mishap of any kind, and now two in two weeks is really difficult to bear.
scardykat85: shyscardykat85 on August 29th, 2008 12:10 pm (UTC)
There isn't anything I can say to make you feel better, but I hope that he turns up safe and sound.
sushikitten59sushikitten59 on August 29th, 2008 12:13 pm (UTC)
Thanks Kat. You and Dave are probably the only two people who know what he means to me.
scardykat85: shyscardykat85 on August 29th, 2008 12:31 pm (UTC)
He's family.
furball2k: Steel Cityfurball2k on August 29th, 2008 04:05 pm (UTC)
Oh I am so sorry to hear about this...

I hope you find him soon! Ferrets love to get into and behind things. Have you checked your furniture? Because I have seen a few ferrets that have gotten out and burrowed their way into couches and mattresses. Remember they can squeeze into narrow holes smaller than their bodies. Try sitting quietly in your home to see if you can hear the little bugger digging or scratching anywhere. I’ll keep you in my thoughts Good Luck!!!
slade_moonriseslade_moonrise on August 30th, 2008 07:23 am (UTC)
Aw I'm so sorry Sush. I wouldn't be able to bear losing one of my cats to the outside world either. They are like children to me :-( I really hope someone finds and brings Pucky back to you. I feel bad that you're having such a rough go of it and that none of us are closer to you to be able to help comfort you IRL. If you ever need or want to talk, you know how to reach me. Phone, IM, or even email if you have to :-\